My 13 of 2013's Recap

I know it sounds cheesy but time really does flies extremely fast during 2013. A moment when I just stay on the bed all day long and here I am, typing this entry. Truth be told, 2013 was one of the best years in almost two decades of my life. A lot of things happens either it is good or bad, it truly has taught me a lot of things and lessons. So here are few of the life's moments which I cherish the most in 2013.

1. My first UK trip.

The deliriously delicious Welsh Cakes!

The Mafias

Bath, a place where heaven and earth meet. ow yeah.

Meet the families.

2. We had our first underwater picture. hoho

not so underwater picture.

3. Travel to Miri to celebrate the joy of my cousin's engagement.

4. The year I've went through another phase of my life.

skewlll!

5. The year we've travelled the most.

Cardiff.

Singapore.

Johor Bahru.

 We don't actually went inside Legoland. hahaha

Melaka.

Kota Kinabalu.(Tawau)

6. The year I've owned my first wigs!

Viola

Bluey

7. Develop a stronger relationship among my girlfriends. =')

We've went through all the ups and downs together. Shared all our problems and try our best to solve anything that can be solve. We are not friends,instead we are more like sisters. I'm really thankful for having these two in my life. All I can say is that I spend 30% of my 2013 with them so we knew each other so well.

8. The year I've get to know many new peoples and some,rekindling the lost friendship.                         

9.The year I had so much 'drinks' and I'm not proud of it. So much. But,whats a party without the happy juices? but I can still survive on Jasmine Green Tea thou. hohohoh 

10. The year I've witnessed so many broken hearted and believe me,its the hardest thing to see when it comes to your loved ones whom experiencing it. But of course,everything happens for a reason.   

11. Meet my 2013's most favourite man.

Ryan Higa!

Oh you sexy piece of meat Nicholas Hoult

Chester See :*

12. The year I've being tested mentally by some emotionally unstable person but I'm very glad I've pass through it,safely in one piece.

13. The year I think I had finally figured out my guardian angel's name,Morris.   

I guess thats all I remembered, for now. Too many memories,but only those most memorable ones that will never be forgotten. Thanks to those whom had made 2013 a very fun-filled year. You know who you are,my dearly people. May God bless you and good luck in 2014!

cheers,

Cath =)                                 

Have you ever ?

Terrible Rainy Tuesday. 

Such a heavy rain all over Kuching and my heart rains,the heaviest.

Let me put up some questions for 'ya to relate.

Have you ever suddenly being thrown to the corner without knowing why?

 Have you ever felt so down that you keep on filling all your minds with all those unnecessary things?
 Have you ever felt that everyone is trying to run away from you and you just don't know why?
 Have you ever felt that everything bad happens because of you and you keep on blaming yourself?
 Have you ever make mistakes without you didn't even realise and people just treat you differently without any further notice or talks? 
Have you ever being treated badly without any reasons?
Have you ever tried to be nice but people just can't accept you and taught you are trying to take advantage and just leave?
Have you ever tried to fit in and all they taught that you are just being a busybody and you are so out of the league?
Have you ever being back stabbed so bad that you just can't trust anyone else any more,even yourself?
Have you ever had the fear of making new contacts because you do not want the same thing to happen again like in the past?
Have you ever wanted to be just,alone,to rethinking what goes on in your life and all they think you are trying to run away from 'em?
Have you ever reigned so hard for the departed loved ones' loves,care and hugs? And you just wished that every time you blinked,you hope that they will be standing just in front of you?
Have you ever tried to love and treat everyone the same without any discrimination but there will always be a few who can't accept the way you do?
Have you ever tried to apologise but it seems like you were talking to yourself the whole time?
Have you ever being asked for a help but you are not very clear on what to lend and how?
Have you ever being accused of what you are actually not are?
Have you ever tried to lend a hand but just not being translated well?
Have you ever tried to be a good friend / person but you are always being accused wrongly?
Have you ever taught that people will be much better without you in their life?
Have you ever wonder why did you get into this situation so much?
Have you ever taught that why does everything you did,they must taught that it relates to them and cause unnecessary problems?
Have you ever felt so hateful of yourself because of all the things you had did but people only sees the negative side?
Have you ever tried to stop living and see what and how do people feel of it?
Have you ever had a problem,wanted to talk it out and express your feeling but you just can't do so because you are so afraid of the person's reaction and the potential of news spreading which was suppose to be a secret?

I do,all of it.

I never had an intention to hurt or be mad at someone for no clear reasons. Strong on the outside doesn't guarantees what happens inside. All you might see is the hysterical laugh and wide smile,but you will never know what's going on inside the heart, the fragile heart of mine. Once broken,you just can't mend it any more. Every time it breaks, the small fragment is too delicate, fine, to be mend back. The cracks are all shown up. There's nothing that you can add up to make it looks perfect any more. I'm differ from others because we are all not the same! You just can't expect me to be just like the rest.
I might not realise my own mistakes but please just don't go berserk on the little things,instead,lets just sit down and talk, talk nicely on what I had did that may had hurt someone unintentionally and I will never denies my mistake,instead I never want to keep grudge and let it eats me innerly,slowly. I may look mature but that does not mean that you should expect me to think like one,and think beyond the infinity. Instead, please guide me if whenever things seems to be out of control.

I really am sorry for everything that may had hurt you unintentionally or intentionally.
If you want me to say it in front of you,please don't get mad more at me because I am a bad apologizer when it comes to seeing eye to eye. How do you expect me to do so when I knew you were being so mad at me over the things I don't realise of ? 
You see, I'm imperfect,so do you. All I want is to be a good person,day to day.
I never foresee this,the thing that I HATE THE MOST,thing that I tried to avoid,but it always feeds and sticks on me. I taught that I can count on you if I had a problem to be share and find ways to solve it.



Dear Lord,
I know you are around me,I seek ye to strengthen my soul and enlighten my path that I may find the solution to all this. Forgive me for chasing upon the earthly things instead of praising and pray to You. Soften the heart and let no grudge upon each other.
I lift this to Jesus Christ our Lord,
Amen.

Love,

cath.

Oh,so you want to be a motivator huh?

FLASHBACK FRIDAY!

This was taken about 4 years back in KK. on our way to one of the island in Sabah, i forgot the name.

 sorry =/

So back to the topic.

People nowadays love to be a motivator. But the reason why i can't accept what they said is that,they speak so much words of motivating others but at the other hand,they themselves don't even practises what they preach. Please,i hate it SO DAMN MUCH..

We are all sinners. So why would you compare someone with the others?

So if u think u are such a perfect person,perhaps earth is not where you belong. because NOBODY'S PERFECT.

Please,again,I have my own story which you would never understand unless you are the one who brings me to the earth. Watch what you say/type before posting it out. You might feel like you are always right but you don't realise that you hurts someone else's feeling pun-intendedly or not.. Doesn't mean you are older,you know everything,and young doesn't mean they don't know a single thing!

Its not that I don't want to take in al the words,its just that AGAIN,i will not take it from someone who doesn't even know what they are saying. URGH

XO,

cath

Where are you love bird ?

Hey ya! So sorry for the late update,was quite buzy with my college life. Assignments,trips and much more that will (i believe in the future) can build up into the new Mount Everest. Since I'm taking Hotel Management,it involves a lot of going around to see how others do in the field. So we recently had our very first trip to Bako. No words can describes how much fun we had together. =) Bittersweet memories.


Back to the main topic.
Few days ago,had a conversation with someone. Told them that I never dated someone in my 18 years of life till today,of course no one believed me. Why? I would never know why. Only He,the Almighty one knows. Because he holds my future. I had a few experience before where I taught that maybe I can actually feel how its like to be someone's, a stranger loved ones besides than family.
And to my expectation, I will always be the one person who seems to be talking to herself.
Got turned down is one of the favourite words that are frequently used in my dictionary.
Since then, whenever I feel like I found someone that perhaps can share my world, I will be really scared to actually say it out until without realising it,it leaves a mark in me. Watching him got into other person's world is quite hard to accept and swallow down. Let me share you a story of someone called ME.

1. I was still a young teenager back then, liked that someone, talk and talk and suddenly one day I don't actually know why till now, he just went MIA. Perhaps I'm too scary for him. Since then,I can't seem to find him and just as a friend, talk again. But well,who would have want to let the person who scares them into their life again.

2. 3-4 years back then, met this someone at someone's special occasion. Found him quite cute and funny in his own way. Text back and forth,never on the phone. So one day I decided that I should spill the beans and tell him what every other person would do if they liked them,tell him. AND OF COURSE, I'm his sister by words. not againnnnnnn. His reason? I have way too far to go yet and embark my journey with someone better. Classic,very classic. Perhaps one day, I should write a novel. GOOD IDEA, and i should make a movie out of it. Till now,he hadn't belong to anyone but the light is too dim to re-ignite. But one thing that makes me adore him more is that,he is someone that can be positive every time you're feeling too much negativity in you.

3. Met the wrong person @ playboy @ jerk. NUFF SAID.



Whatever it is for now, I'm here,walking the new path in life. Trying to focus and get myself used to it and slowly seeping in the new environment.
I don't need any more negativity in my life so I'm very glad to let go all of the past.
Let He decides whats best for His beloved children.

so lets end this with some of my favourite quotes in a picture =)

i love the message.

sounds familiar.

and lastly..........

Love,

cath.

Just another manic monday... =/

Fuuuuuh wow. It is official,I am a very-very rusty piece of machine . Had our 'National Kesatria' class and the objective for  the class today is to have our fitness test. And the test that we(my classmates and i) have to go through is RUN (in my case,run → jog → walk → crawl) 2.4KM hew hew hew. So the marks are given by how fast you complete the race,well not really a race anyway.15 mins and below are given 10 points So i completed it after 12 minutes and 35 seconds ! PERSONAL RECORD! So,as soon as i finished,i literally,crawl and drag my ass on the floor to reach my water bottle and an instant CHEST PAIN strikes,OH MY.. OH SO HUMILIATING. but who cares,I'm not the only one anyway =) Haven't been exercise like FOREVER. oops.
I don't like the feeling of work out all alone. why?

1. The silence is so loud when you are working out alone. AWKWARD.

2. We all need motivation and someone to smack our ass whenever we skip any work-out 
     routine,so that we stay motivated,DON'T WE?

3. There must be someone by our side "sight-seeing" while working out,IS A MUST.

You don't really have to go the gym actually to work out. Our room is our private gym. What you going to have as your 'equipments' are big mineral bottle( filled it full with water,or better,SAND) as your DUMBell. A yoga mat for pumping or any workouts that may need you to do it on the floor. You don't want to get any bruises because of the hard floor.


Goodluck to anyone out there who is trying to work out =)

                                                   

      OH RYAN.

My Favourite Eating Place Part 1

Flashback Friday!

                                                           I miss my ombre hair =(

Now,back to the main topic.
I have too many favourite eating place but  there are few which really stands out. ( mostly are serving non-halal food,sorry my muslim friends =/ )



1.Best Green Noodle,Chong Chon Cafe

2. Best Ayam Penyet ,Raja Ayam Penyet

3. Best Western Style Pork,Porkies

 *sorry,no pic for this,cant find any proper ones.*
BUT IT IS REALLY2 TASTY!

4. Best Budget-saving place to hang out
   PEACH GARDEN / 101 

5. Best Western Food with reasonable price and BIG PORTION

      SHARING PLANET!

All those pictures are making me hungry and probably i will chow down this laptop if i dont move my ass from this chair and cook.

That's all for now.

p/s : there will be PART 2!

bye! xoxo